So I definitely lied about updating this weekly...I just always forget. Sorry!
So it's been a while now, about a month since I last updated, and a lot has happened in my heart, and life in this past month. God has started testing my faith, challenging me so that I may be more in tune with Him. And it is hard. Really hard. One way He has and is still testing me is by stepping back. I'll explain that this way: when a child is learning to walk, you don't stand directly in front of him and expect him to go anywhere, and you don't continuously hold the child cause then it never learns...you have to take a couple steps back, risk the child falling or tripping over themselves and getting hurt, and beckon them towards you with all your might. If he does trip and fall, you run towards him, pick him up, brush him off and set him on his feet again and take a couple steps back and start calling again. Hopefully the child will get you eventually after learning from his mistakes.
Lately this is how my life with God has been. He has taken a couple steps back. And I don't fully experience Him like I used to. It's really difficult for me right now because His presence isn't with me like it used to constantly be, but it is causing me to constantly persevere towards Him and keep looking into my own life to see what sin may be causing me to stumble and separate me from Him. This time in my life has also challenged me to think about why I believe in God, and if i really do. If he is really real. If He is not just something that is a once in while experience but someone who is always with you and and leads and guides you through life. I really believe that God is strengthening my faith in Him in this time and there are 2 options that I can take right now. 1 is to give up, say He isn't real and just live my life being a good person. 2 is to believe He is real and continue to devote my life daily to Him and persevere and eventually, through stumbling and some crawling, arrive back at the feet of my Jesus. I'm taking the 2 option :)
So another God is testing me is through my finances. I have had not the greatest financial support for probably the last 2 months or so and because of it..bills are stacking up and I will have to leave if I don't get the support. There are a couple of reasons that I can see why this is happening to me. One is because I have been pretty lackadaisical in keeping people updated and involved in what God is doing in and through me here in Boston. Another reason is He is testing my faith in Him even more, and continuing to convict me of how I spend my money and how to spend it wisely and when to tithe or to give away.
Staying on that topic, giving, I was in prayer the other day, asking God, like, what is holding back your financial provision for my life? What sin or idol have I made that has taken your place? What do i need to give up (sin or like, idol-wise) in order for you to provide for me? And so after asking this I felt God telling me to go up to one of our students here, her name is Joanna, and tell her that I am supposed to give her something of mine. But the thing is, i am not to determine what to give her, God is, and so i told her to pray and ask God what he wants me to give her! anything of mine. from my ipod to shoes to my talent or time to my computer. Well, knowing that is like a big thing to say to someone i gave her time to pray about it and she actually ended up praying about it for 7 or 8 days, to get complete confirmation from God for what i was to give her, cause, it was reallllly big. And so, after her heartfelt prayer, and confirmation several times through different people and God, she told me what God told her to ask me for. My computer. wow. that's like big. really big. So, immediatley I started asking God, like, why did you tell her that?! Why my Mac?! I love my mac...my life is on there...and then with those last words, I felt kinda silly. My life? on a computer? How sad is that? That i thought my life was on a piece of hardware? Then I felt really convicted that I had made my computer like an idol. That is was sucking up time that i could be spending with Jesus or building relationships with friends here. And i'm not saying that i spend a boat-load of time on my computer, but it is one thing in my life that was keeping me from fully trusting in God. And so the test wasn't only, am I gonna give away whatever God told Joanna to ask for, but more so, am gonna fully trust and rely on God so that my life can be on Him and not a computer.
So, ya. no more Macbook. One day i'll get another computer...no clue when but whenever the time is right. The most important thing is that now I am one baby step closer to unity with my Father, and my Jesus.
Now, can i ask you something? My support right now is far behing...$1150 behind actually. I want to include people in what God is using me for here in boston, and well, you are people. You can be a part of God changing Boston. How? by supporting me. By sending me your tithe mabye once a month. Like 10 bucks even. By you supporting me you are allowing God's work to be done through me. and what do i do? what happens? Well i can't tell you the future but i can tell you what has happened through me so far....our student's, especially our guys, they have someone to come and talk to about what they are learning. And i'm their age. how cool is that? I've gone through what they have, God has prepared me to lead and counsel them and I get to be a part of the changing process of their life! Not only that but I am one of the worship leaders here, i get to help teach music, theory, evangelism and i get to lead teams in boston to tell people about Jesus! That is so cool! At least I think it is....it's amazing to me how like perfect God has hand-picked each and every person here out, and put us together, for such a time as this. And i know for a fact that if i weren't here, things would be very off and not complete! So, please, pray and ask God what you might give to help me out, so that you might be a part of what God is doing here, so that i can stay here and continue His work He has called me to! thank you and God bless!
in christ's love
Aaron Reeves
email me at aaronmreeves@gmail.com or call me at 701 212 8390!
if you wanna send anything send to 23 Emerson St, Newton, MA 02458 and if it's a check make it out to YWAM Boston Inc.
